Moving As One + Un-forming Problems
This e-mail has three sections
A video on movement or taking care of your body
An insight on life, psychology, relationships or business
A reflection from the past week, including highlights and updates
Let’s go.
1. Feeling And Moving As One Body — 2 min watch time
2. We Don’t Want To Be Free Of Problems — We Just Want To Be Bigger Than They Are
I know you have problems and they feel so real, so concrete.
I know you feel stuck sometimes,
and occasionally the stuck-ness grows and becomes so central, so overwhelming that it obscures your view of the beauty and spontaneity and magic.
And I get that sometimes you feel sandwiched,
between the unstoppable force which is life and its events,
and the heaviness of your own limitations…
But “where is the energy to change going to come from?!” you ask.
There. That is the misunderstanding.
Change is already happening, and you’re fighting against it with all of yourself.
— Hiding in your phone (which is great, but not when used to hide)
— Hiding in your work (which is great, but not when used to hide)
— Hiding in your training (which is great, but not when used to hide)
— Hiding in your meditation (which is great, but not when used to hide)
And all of this reinforces the illusion that you’re stuck, because reality seems so scary.
But the reality is this:
You aren’t stuck in your problems. Your problems are stuck in you, caught in your grip.
You might not believe me.
“Get real dude… things aren’t just going to solve themselves”
Ohhh but they will. Through you.
The variable is just how much drama and delusion there will be.
There needn’t be any, really…
Live lives itself — and it’s clear to see when you really observe.
There is no more powerful force than life itself.
Nature will not be denied and your biology will never, ever, ever stop advocating for you.
The fear and lethargy you feel isn’t your body denying you the right to thrive.
It’s the thoughts and beliefs you’ve held onto, shaking in their boots because you’re about to reveal them to be false.
And because you’ve identified with them, you’ll think you’re rendering yourself false (ego death).
But your ego will be fine — it will reform itself more beautifully, following you wherever you go.
There is space for you both to ride the generosity of this next passing breath you’re about to take.
See, the action will eventually happen. And it will happen by itself, without a do-er.
And shortly after the action happens, a story will attempt to form.
The thinker will appear, as a record-keeper of your human story playing out. And this thinker will take credit for what nature did without thinking, and help the ego form itself again. And nature won’t respond, because it will have already moved on.
Yes, nature.
The real you.
No, not just trees and bugs and bees and flowers.
The nature — the all-mind which fixates on nothing, is everything, and moves by itself.
The real you moves mountains like it’s the easiest thing in the world, and never in the way your thinking mind expects, because thought and expectation is sluggish and based on fragments of a stagnant past.
The real you is beyond grasp, and the imagined you spends its life grasping for something it thinks it has lost.
Until you stop looking, and it becomes clear that all of this is playing out from within the real you.
Who you think you are… and each iteration of that (every haircut, every phase, every identity) has always been held in the vast expanse of something much greater.
You don’t even have to let go. Just don’t grab.
The you that is doing and trying is simply a sensation of tension you’ve become accustomed to, because change seems unfamiliar.
And yet it’s been the only constant since you were an infant.
There is nothing to do but allow your being to gravitate towards that which sings of truth.
And if you can’t hear the song, get a little quieter for a moment.
Slow your breathing just a smidge, and time will be generous to you.
3. Lately, I find myself unconditionally more content, and less bothered.
I’ve been “tasting bitter” — actively seeking discomfort in a way which requires me to release my identity and move into new realms of experience. I know that life has a certain unsatisfactoriness to it, and always will, because part of life is the seeking and not-yet-finding.
So I hunt that.
I chase humblings, and I seek to reveal the many ways I am not who I think I am.
This is my gift to myself.
Fertiliser.
I’ve been respecting my body in this process, honouring my anatomy and my needs. My practice is entirely based around what I need, and I move precisely in the way that by body is asking, regardless of who is around me.
Little by little, I am becoming more attuned to the whispering voice within myself that slips away into the silence and makes no attempt to argue with the other noises in my mental world.
And when I can’t hear that voice, I still have a map to where it is, navigating by distrusting the belief systems that I know I am not.
It’s been a process, and it still is.
That’s all it ever is.
Thank you for reading.
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